Gone, but never forgotten...

There have been people in my life that I've lost. Some of them friends, some of them family, but they're not here now. And this video is beautiful and shows how I feel. I was very young when I lost my first friend. He died in my arms. I don't think anyone in my life had a clue what this did to me, or that I even understood it at the time. But I did. So this is for that friend, whom I lost when I was just a child myself. I tried to save you, but I was just too small and too young. I'm sorry, friend.

Another person I've lost, is someone else who was a co-worker and friend. We didn't always see eye to eye, but her death made me sob my eyes out. It was so sudden and tragic, and made no sense. For her, I play this video as well. I miss your smile. I miss everything you were. And I miss our inside jokes. You were incredibly special and gone way too soon.

Another person I dedicate this too, you were my family, when I felt like my actual family never got me. You were special. You were dearly loved. I have nothing but amazing memories of you. And I pray if there is a Heaven, we will see each other again. I love you so much.

Next person, you have no idea how your presence shaped my life. I adored you, even when no one else did. I know some people try to villafie you now, but I don't let them. You showed me who you were, more than once. And I will forever be your little girl. I love you.

Another person gone, you were my friend, when I had very few of those. We were never super close, but I admired you so much. You were the person I wanted to be, and somehow you lost your way. I don't know how. We weren't friends when it happened, but oh, I miss your smile. I'm so sorry no one could help you.

My mentor, my life force. I thought of you as the father I would pick, if people could pick. You weren't perfect. You were so aloof. Yet, I cared for you more than I should. Your death caused so much tragedy in my life. You have no idea. And you didn't know I cared the way I did, my surrogate father.

You were my friend on the internet, when other people shunned me. Oh, the things we shared! We laughed, and we plotted, and I thought you were wonderful. Imagine my shock to learn you had passed, and I wasn't there. I'm so sorry, friend. I had no idea. But believe me, I cried when I found out.

My friend, my confidant. I loved you, not the way you wished, but still love. You had a piece of me, and were taken way too soon. We never finished our list. I will always hold you in my memories. My dear friend.

I've deliberately not named these people. They need no names. They just hold a piece of me. Forever. And I'll always love and miss them. And this song is for them...

Love you all....